Saturday, August 30, 2014

IMLOU

I have not blogged in a while so I thought I would today. We just finished Ironman Louisville last sunday and what an experience that was for me. I had an amazing time. It was my very first WTC even but my fifth 140.6. Everyone says you are not an Ironman until you do one of these. I have to totally disagree. 140.6 is 140.6 no matter how you look at it. I do not feel the event was any different other than the red carpet. I do have to say that Louisville has some amazing volunteers. I am so happy that we were able to do it.


So lets start with the swim. I can swim but the swims always seem to freak me out. We were allowed to have a practice swim on Saturday and I was told that the damn was open and that the rain make the current very strong. Of course this was after I got in swam 13 min one direction and it took me 3 min to swim the exact same distance back. Wow that freaked me out as I watched all the other swimmers still in the water going no where. I thought how in the world is this going to work tomorrow. I was informed by many people who had done it before that they will close the damn the day of the race and that the island that we swim by will help protect us. This sure did not make me feel that comfortable that my swim time was going to suck. But I kept breathing (my relaxation  method) The water was dark and we were not in the ocean so I also knew this would help with some of my other anxiety issues. I figured no sharks or gators could get me and I could not really see anything that could freak me out. So all in all it couldn't be that bad right. Well as the line started to roll that Sunday morning my husband gave me a kiss and he took off and jumped into the water. I tried to keep up with him as we said we were going to jump in together but he is always faster at everything, lol. So I jumped in and jumped in to sludge, yuck. Both of my feet felt like I was knee deep in gross moss. As I swam many people were at both my sides, some breast stroking the entire thing. I kept getting kicked and grabbed. Someone even had there fingers lodged in my wedding band and it almost came off.  My focus was to get around the island and pace myself. I needed to get to the tip and use all the energy I had to get around the island then I knew it would open up and calm down. And it did. I swam my best swim time other than at BTB which had a great current so I don't count it lol. As I got out of the water however, the volunteer skipped over me and grabbed the person behind me and I sunk and could not get my legs on the ladder to get out. I was head under the water and no one helped me out. I still made it but really hello. This was also my first 140.6 where I did not wear a wet suite.



So now we change out of the skin and jump on the bike right. Well I tried to get some sunscreen on as I ran out of the changing tent and had the guy only use what he had on his hands at the time and put on my shoulders because I did not want to waist any time the bike is my slowest part and I knew those hills were going to kill me so I needed to get on my bike asap and go. We drove the course on Friday and I freaked out about the hills I had estimated before we got there that this would be my longest 112 miles at about 7-730 hrs but after we drove it I was adding another hour if not more. OMG those hills are going to kill me is all I thought. But on race day I tried to stay calm and remember that I had to be safe and take it easy on the first loop. So I went out and rode. On the first out and back there was all hills the biggest hills and they were winding. As I climbed a really big hill I saw a grim reaper and a little devil. There were three people there but this is all my mind could remember. The grim reaper gave me some great pointers for this girl who does not do hills. He said sit up and spin. I love this man for the rest of my life. He saved my legs and made it so much easier!! It was up and down up and down from there until the end. Over 5000 ft of climbing the most I had ever done. I wanted off my bike at mile 50 and I still had so much more to go. At about mile 80 I started to feel sick and could not understand it. I tried everything, I drank more water took my pills, had my nutrition and even tried to stretch my neck. Nothing seemed to work so I chalked it up to just needing to get off my bike. It had been overcast and I never really felt hot on the bike so I could not think of anything else it could be. So I rolled into town and started to think how am I going to run with these legs great this is going to be fun and oh how I feel so sick great.




So I had walk from where I handed my bike off to where I grab my stuff and change  -my legs were so weak. I had a great lady who helped me change and put my calf sleeves on and I was off. Off to the porta-potty because I had not gone in hours. So after that then I realized it was time to move. I jogged out of transition and down the winding road to where the others were running.  All I could think of was wow here goes and oh please stomach feel better. I got this far and yes I saw yellow butterflies that got me that far and I needed to finish. So as I ran I kept thinking keep it together. I jogged ,yes jogged because this was no way a run, to each water station taking water and ice as well as a sip of coke. Each water station got worst my stomach felt bloated and now I started to feel like I was going to poop my pants and throw up all at the same time. Then came the chills and I thought ,ok lets be smart about this. I saw my husband out on the run course and really wanted to catch up to him since he was walking due to a broken toe prior to the race. However, I never could catch him. But I did get to kiss him once. When I finally threw up into my water cup I realized I had to just finish not worry about my time or how bad it was but finish, finish up right and not be taken off the course. People were dropping left and right and ambulances were taking people off the course like crazy. Later my husband told me that if you stopped they came up to you and rushed you off. I am so glad I remember to just keep moving forward. Forward movement gets you to the finish line. My motto is I will finish and I will finish on my own accord not one is going to help me or take me off the course. This is an individual sport I train that way and I race that way. My husband and I have an agreement, race smart I am not picking you up in medical or the hospital but I will meet you at the finish line. I ended up walking quite a bit after that and meet a wonderful man who had just finished IM Canada - wow that was just a few weeks ago and they had mountains is all I could think. As I walked I just tried to keep a good pace and not get sick any more. I could not drink or eat anything I felt like my body was cooking from the inside out and when the sun set it felt hot out side. I even felt like I had been crying in my chest. Weird I know. I just could never catch my breath I guess, sorta like after a good hard cry.  So as Dom and I were getting closer to the finish line we made a plan to run the famous red carpet. I was tired and just wanted to be done. This was my slowest one yet. However, my most challenging one. As we crossed that finish line a volunteer sweeps you up and takes you away, Dom patted me on the back and said great job and I did to him as well. I see my lovely husband sore from his run on a fracture big toe smile at me from the fence. I take my picture they make you take and go to him. I love that we do these together. I love that he is always at the finish line waiting on me. He is my strength! I am so happy that we got the chance to do this race. I so would have loved to have not let the dehydration take my fun for me. This just makes me want to do it again. I really did enjoy the course and would recommend it to anyone who would like a challenge. We both got done that night and said we were going to take a year off. Knowing us I said ya right lets wait tell tomorrow and see what we say. Yep we woke up and started to plan Naples Hits cause that is what we do. I love our life. xxoo



Sunday, June 1, 2014

previous life vs new life

I call this my new life. My daughter has told me many times that she misses how I use to dress. I looked back on those days today. I know I had a totally different job and I did have to dress differently, but I was also not as active as I am now. I reflected on this today as I ran my 13 mile run. I even discussed this with my husband today at lunch as we reflected on the car expense we had just received.

Prior to 2010 I would wear high heals, have my nails done,  my hair colored on a regular bases and  I would enjoy beer and wine when I could.  I had children who loved fast food and pizza and would indulge with them. I did join a gym for a few years prior to 2010 and would take step classes, and the occasional spin and weight class (but always classes nothing solo). I hated my life and never knew the way out. I was more concerned about how I would make it then how much happier I would be.

Long story short things happen for a reason. I was laid off from my job in 2007 (I think that was the year).  I had just signed up for night classes to go back to school and decided to change them to day classes. I went to nail school got my license and took my pre-required classes to start acquiring my AS Degree. I worked and went to school full time. As I realized that only part of my life was changing I had made an agreement with myself that after school was over I would complete my transformation. I needed a divorce.

Today I am the happiest I have ever been. Shortly after graduating I had started to run in 2009 had to take a year off until 2010 and have not stopped since. In fact added biking and swimming to it in 2012. I married my husband who also does these activities in 2013. I may not do my hair on a regular bases, wear high heals, put makeup on or have a drink after work. However, I am the happiest I have ever been. I am married to the love of my life and even though my house and car are falling apart I could not be happier. And on a side note, my husband does not care if I do my hair or make up. I wear more workout clothes than dress clothes these days and would not change it for anything. Happiness is what matters.
top pictures are old life 
bottom are new life

Saturday, May 31, 2014

Long Bike Ride / crazy thoughts

I know I have not blogged in a long time but today on our long ride I was thinking.......

I have some very fast friends and I always seem to get up set when they start talking pace. I am slow I know this but when they start to throw out numbers it just makes my head spin. I am not sure if it is because I wonder why they need to tell me speed or if it is because I hear their numbers and I start calculating how much slower I am then them. I would also like to know what they mean when they say pace is relative. Relative to what? I feel like they are saying it is relative to them being fast and me being slow. I know that this should not get to me but it does. I am hyper sensitive and always feel this is a slap in the face. Just like when people post on their wall on Facebook how fast they go and how far - why do they need to brag. I get the idea of making yourself accountable and idea of motivation but we are not all the same and I feel like this could also be discouraging to many.

I was also feeling bad for myself in regards to a previous comment from another triathlete mom. I was told that it was harder for moms with younger children than for mothers with teenagers to be triathletes. I disagree. I think that moms in general it is hard to be triathlete especially when it comes to the long corse. Yes I get that I do not have to wipe butts, but when your teenager gets in to trouble it is usually not just because he bit another child or threw sand at someone. Which made me start to think....


Triathlons are like children. Sometimes you have to clean up some poop. Sometimes you have to clean up vomit. You learn fundamentals in your early years and build on them from year to year. When you graduate you walk across the stage and get a diploma everyone gets the same one. When you cross the finish line you get a medal just like everyone else. Now if you excel in school you have awards and if you win or win your age group you also get an award.  Just a thought.

At mile 45 ish of our ride today I got a flat tire on a road that Shaun just told me he saw rattle snakes on. Ya this was probably the fast tire change I have ever done. It did help that it was on the front tire and that the blow out made the tire come off.


Then as I rode on I thought Shut up you are so dumb none of this matters. You do this for you and not anyone else. And you do the best you can with what you got. I work a full time job, raising two teenagers, am a wife, studying for another board, and still training non stop. All that matters is, I am doing what I want to do, not how I add up to everyone else. I know that there is always room for improvement and I am working on that. It takes time. I love this sport and will continue to grow from it.
I have meet so many great people doing triathlons and we do not always talk about race pace or distance. But then again we do talk a lot about training and racing. I have some amazing friends and have really grown to love this sport more and more each day. Don't get me wrong I hurt and days are not easy but the feeling of accomplishment outweigh all the work it takes.


I guess I should have said as my mind wondered today these were my thoughts lol. Long bike rides make for a lot of random thoughts.